2011

2010 was a hard year in most aspects.

Financially it was a year to stay home, if you know what I mean.

And psychologically it was a year to stay home too. You can say you don't believe in anything at all, but when I decided to throw a New Year's party at home this year, to gather my family, I realized the way you spend your New Year's Eve may tell how you'll spend the new year that comes.

On Dec. 31, 2009, I had a fight with my best friend at the time, and I chose to stay home while everybody went to the beach to celebrate. That day my father had called me and my brother and sister, and he said such lovely things I had expected for so long to hear, that I decided I'd rather stay home with that feeling than go celebrate with my friends. And I did stay home, alone with Benji, in a hammock, with my cigs and beers. And after midnight I went to bed.

And 2010 was a hell of a lonely year. A year that for some reason I wanted to stay home, stay away from all my friends, like I needed some time to put things in the right place in my mind and heart. And so I did, it seems.

But then this year went by, and a new year started fresh and new. I had plenty of time to train my patience, to know myself a lil better, to realize things I hadn't realized yet and that were important to me, so that I could begin again this journey, as we do every year.

What I bring to the new year? Not much--I've learned to pack light--but the certainty that this will be a hell of a year is here in my heart.

This will be the year when my family will finally see the plan become a reality, when our work of nearly two years will finally come out.

This will be the year when I'll build the house of my dreams, and decorate it! The way I've always wanted to.

In 2011 we'll have to work hard, but I'll get to travel abroad, which has been one of my dreams since I was a teenager.

2011, the door is wide open :) You can come in and make yourself at home!